Documenting October part 1

I started this whole documenting October thing last year and now, looking back at it, I thought I could make it an annual project. We'll see how that turns out. :)

1.10.2012

why I am not where you are

because words have never been enough and never will be. because i need your eyes mirrored into the sadness of mine to let my heart speak in silence. then you’d understand everything, like you did on the first day when our ribs interlaced through clothes and flesh and snowflakes. but you built these walls so high, and I am miles away from your smile and I can’t steady my heart to beat into proper Morse code. so if you ever feel an earthquake, please know that it means ‘i love you’ and the aftermaths mean ‘i miss you’.

thoughts of a lonely mind, in the middle of the night. people should not be allowed to miss one another so much.

2.10.2012

I walked around the city after school and found this really amazing English second hand bookshop in which I wondered for some time, being amazed at the selection of titles they had. I promised myself I will go back there one day and buy something.

From there, I walked to Central Station to take the bus home, as the sky looked more gloomy, and the rain started.

I spent the afternoon bundled up in my blanket, drinking tea and eating raspberry jam toast, reading for school and missing my friends back home to the moon and back.

3.10.2012

The four stages of a very yummy vanilla black tea with milk...

...and the laziness of drinking it in bed on a very rainy morning.

4.10.2012

Words that keep me sane on days when all I want to do is disappear.

5.10.2012

This was a really cold, windy and rainy day, but I had to be in school to meet a girl who is conducting a psychological experiment in which I volunteered to take part. It was really interesting, and facing the rough weather for it proved to be worth it.

Later on, I went to Ikea, which turned out to be one of the saddest things I've ever done, since whenever I went there when I was back home I was with my roommates. All of a sudden, I missed everyone and everything.

6.10.2012

Sunny days are really rare lately, but they bring the most beautiful light in my room when they come about, making it really hard to stop taking photos and to focus on studying.

7.10.2012

Every first Sunday of each month, there is a market in Westerpark, very close to where I live. Last month I missed it, but today I went there and it was a really nice way to spend my Sunday afternoon. The atmosphere was amazing, there was music, delicious food and a lot of very nice things for sale. In all the craze, though, love found its way. :)

last year's counterpart